It's been an interesting kaleidoscope of a week for me. For those who know me, you know that dates are pretty important to me. I count forward and backward quite a bit: "This time last year, I was . . . " For that reason, while I have been completely enjoying my present, as sun sets and the kids are asleep and the house becomes quiet, the old "date-counter" kicks in and I start to think about where I've been.
Four years ago . . . I was expecting a baby, I knew that something was desperately wrong in my home, and I had no idea what the future might hold. I spent lots of time in prayer, trying in a true Rapunzel-like fashion, to weave fear and worry into faith.
Three years ago . . . I was a single mother, working really hard to bring up my two children and help them enjoy the holiday. I was one month cancer-free and celebrating the fact that God had brought healing into my life.
Two years ago . . . I was settling into a new life, thinking that God had come in and sealed my future. At the same time, I felt some "cracks" around the edges and was wondering why my miracle felt a little less than perfect. Back to the Rapunzel-like spinning . . .
Today . . . I am celebrating where I am. I am a confident mother of two gorgeous, exceptional children who make my life beautiful and full. While I don't know the details of the future God has planned, I KNOW that He has a definite, complete plan for my life, and I am walking confidently toward it, focusing on Him. (The spinning finally worked.)
Over the past four years, I've taken a journey of Thanksgiving. I've learned to life the truth of the verse: In whatsoever state you are, be therefore content, for this is the will of God concerning your life. Things aren't perfect. They aren't even easy. But I'm not alone - He's with me! And I am thankful that He is holding my hand.